hello.. i just read someone's blog.. then he talk about blogging styles.. and i think is quite true lah.. i think my blog is like ultra boring and pretty feelingless like that.. i dunno.. i mean i keep a blog cos i wanna remember stuff that has happened.. and probably my feelings then right.. somehow i dun seem to write much of my feelings down.. its just like a descriptive essay which isnt even descriptive talking bout what happened that day.. hmm maybe i should change the way i write. at least can cAptUrE and rEtAiN certain feelings i dun wanna forget? heh. ok i think i dun make sense..
today's cny. somehow its been really boring.. dunno why also.. everyone on my maternal side went on and on about how different i look now.. and some even asked who i am and thought i was my cousin's gf.. hmm yah.. then say next time if i see them on the streets must say hi to them cos they wont recognise me. and that repeated every single time a new relative came. then my cousin's daughter.. that would be my niece right. ohmygod, shes damn cute. i'd give anything i bring her home now man. ahhh damn cute. and her name is vera. hehe.. i dunno how to spell la.. but its pronounced like that..
okay anyway i did quite some thinking and talking today.. and i realised ive really changed.. hopefully for the matured i guess.. it doesnt seem like drastic changes but somehow there's just something about me that makes me different from last time.. i dunno.. all my insecurities, doubts.. they're still there.. but they've eVoLvEd.. it isnt just so simple anymore.. life aint that simple anymore. people backstab u, betray u.. haha. welcome to the real world man. thankfully i still have the dwc.. and of cos twin ((: i guess i should really learn to be contented with what i have.
anyway, pam xt and maybet terence coming over tmr. yeah man.. hope it'll be fun. dwc rocks! woohoo!
lotsoflove, princess
